So it’s been just over two weeks since I last wrote, and obviously, quite a bit has happened since then – namely, I had a baby! Me. I gave birth. To a person. It’s amazing how much life can change in the span of fourteen days.
First, I would like to thank everyone for the well-wishes, prayers, thoughts, emails and messages during this time. Even though I was off busy birthin’ a baby, I can’t tell you how much I missed blogging, and how touched I was by the outpouring of support. You all are swell. Seriously.
I admit that I am having some difficulty writing this post. I’m scrolling through my phone looking for pictures to supplement, and I’m overcome with emotion. Aisha’s delivery and birth were difficult – traumatic, even. We almost didn’t make it. And while we’ve both come out of the experience no worse for wear, the enormity of it seeps into my conscience every now and then, and it’s sobering. Sometimes I tear up. Sometimes I cry outright.
I’m aware that I might be a little hormonal, but I sink into the aforementioned sadness when I let my mind go back to a certain point in time roughly two weeks ago. This isn’t PPD, as I’m not sad, overwhelmed or depressed about the arrival of my daughter and the upheaval to my life. Aisha fills me with a different emotion completely, one that I haven’t yet been able to put into words. “Joy” is the first word that comes to mind, although it seems inadequate, somehow. I think I’m experiencing a mild form of post-event stress, and the boy seems to be having a similar experience as well. He was a first-hand witness to everything that happened, and amid the chaos and frenzy, he remained amazingly supportive and even-keeled – so much so that even Dr. Freedman commented on how nicely he stepped up to the plate. I have to go by what she tells me. My memory of that time is markedly different.
But this was not meant to be a sad or scary post. I will write about Aisha’s birth in some form or fashion at a later date. For now, I just wanted to introduce you to my girl, Aisha Yvonne.
Here she is at roughly 13 minutes old:
And again at 13 days:
I’m glad to be back on the blog. Happy to hear from all of you; I tried my best to personally respond to each of your messages, and if I missed out on saying hello or thank you, blame my head and not my heart.