then and now.

then and now.

il_fullxfull.165641151I simply cannot believe she is two weeks old today.

So it’s been just over two weeks since I last wrote, and obviously, quite a bit has happened since then – namely, I had a baby! Me. I gave birth. To a person. It’s amazing how much life can change in the span of fourteen days.

First, I would like to thank everyone for the well-wishes, prayers, thoughts, emails and messages during this time. Even though I was off busy birthin’ a baby, I can’t tell you how much I missed blogging, and how touched I was by the outpouring of support. You all are swell. Seriously.

I admit that I am having some difficulty writing this post. I’m scrolling through my phone looking for pictures to supplement, and I’m overcome with emotion. Aisha’s delivery and birth were difficult – traumatic, even. We almost didn’t make it. And while we’ve both come out of the experience no worse for wear, the enormity of it seeps into my conscience every now and then, and it’s sobering. Sometimes I tear up. Sometimes I cry outright. 

I’m aware that I might be a little hormonal, but I sink into the aforementioned sadness when I let my mind go back to a certain point in time roughly two weeks ago. This isn’t PPD, as I’m not sad, overwhelmed or depressed about the arrival of my daughter and the upheaval to my life. Aisha fills me with a different emotion completely, one that I haven’t yet been able to put into words. “Joy” is the first word that comes to mind, although it seems inadequate, somehow. I think I’m experiencing a mild form of post-event stress, and the boy seems to be having a similar experience as well. He was a first-hand witness to everything that happened, and amid the chaos and frenzy, he remained amazingly supportive and even-keeled – so much so that even Dr. Freedman commented on how nicely he stepped up to the plate. I have to go by what she tells me. My memory of that time is markedly different.

But this was not meant to be a sad or scary post. I will write about Aisha’s birth in some form or fashion at a later date. For now, I just wanted to introduce you to my girl, Aisha Yvonne.

Here she is at roughly 13 minutes old:

WP_20140219_005Shiny! She’s got that new-baby smell.

And again at 13 days:

cheeksmcgeeMy cuddle-buddy. I can’t get over how much her face has changed in two weeks.

I’m glad to be back on the blog. Happy to hear from all of you; I tried my best to personally respond to each of your messages, and if I missed out on saying hello or thank you, blame my head and not my heart.

Much love!

31 thoughts on “then and now.

  1. I gave a little squeak when I saw this post. Congratulations, she is just gorgeous. Can’t wait to see more pics and hear how it’s all going. Good work!!!

  2. OMG How do you get anything done with her around? I would just want to cuddle her constantly! The hair!!! I die.

  3. Oh, Aisha is SO precious!! (And looks eerily similar to my older child, Ellie at two weeks. I’ll have to find a picture to share) I hope you are doing well and really can’t wait to hear more about her and your new chapter in life!

    1. I’d love to see Ellie, Maggie!

      I’ll be posting more very soon. I’ve discovered that I can drag her pack ‘n’ play into the office with me, so there will be more entries in the near future.

    1. My girlfriends all had bald babies, too, Meg! 😀

      I had a lot of heartburn, and read an article that debunked most old wives’ tales – but science has found some co-relation between heartburn and headfuls of hair.

      Aisha is also covered in fuzz on her arms back and down her bum… 😮

  4. Quite a looker you squirted out there. Geb insisted I add her to the “Potential Ladies to Love” list he’s been compiling. Hope she’s into slightly older, borderline obese boys. Congratulations!

    1. If Aisha is anything like her mama, then she prefers her men with a li’l extra something to love. I dunno how I ended up with my boy – he’s definitely on the lean side. ha! Geb is pretty freakin’ adorbz, but tell him I have to meet him and have a wee sit down before I let him take out my one and only. 😀

    1. Haha! Thanks, Paige. She’s so lovely, if I may say so myself. 😀

      Her dad doesn’t like the whole baby-on-social-media thing, so I have to take care with how often I post the little one on the blog. Womp, womp…

  5. Congratulations on making it through, Joanne, and thanks for sharing your story 🙂

    If you’re going to blog about your baby, yeah, you’re going to have choices to make. Especially if you’re not both down with sharing pictures of Aisha in a public capacity. But as with everything, you’ll work through it 🙂

    (But what do I know? I’m only four months in!)

    Good luck with everything 🙂 !

  6. Gosh she is beautiful! And you have described exactly what it’s like when you meet your newborn – joy almost doesn’t cut it. Huge congratulations xxx

    1. Thank you, Sherri! She gets cuter by the day….I am excited to see what Aisha will be like at age nine, but I will enjoy the cuddly stage for now! 🙂

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s